It's a question that has rattled around in my mind for the last several days. I want to know God's will and do it and "live within" it and embrace it as my enclosure. I've thought and talked and written for years about this very thing.
Yet today I find myself face to face with one question.
"Are you in or are you out?"
I will admit that this is not what I expected to be writing when I came to this screen tonight. I thought I'd be looking into a few specific reasons for monastic life, considering how these might be applied to our lives out in the world.
Even as I type this, I feel a bit of clarification (and you're getting this just as it comes to me,
Tomorrow, God willing, I will be back on this screen. In the meantime, I only have to take a brief look around to see that the world is not all that understanding of those who want to live totally for Christ. Living as the Church asks us to do, spending our lives "inside" the will of God? That can be looked upon as a pretty crazy decision. There really isn't much room for compromise.
The will of God stands open to welcome me. I can't spend my whole life just loitering in the doorway.
Am I in? Or out?